LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED
I found my place. If there is success, this is how it feels.
I was a dreamer, because I needed it
My name is Hanna.
I was baptized Hanna Guadalupe Winiarczyk-Illoldi.
Today I am called Hanna Kristall.
I changed my surname to Kristall as a symbol of transformation, similar to a snake shedding its skin as part of a natural process, symbolizing growth and a new beginning.
I am the daughter of a Mexican teacher / health care manager and a Polish musician / conductor.
I was born in Austria, but raised traveling Mexico, Italy, Poland and many other parts of the world, while on tour with my dad.
My brother Karol is older than me, but numbers never really mattered: we were like twins. And still are. We had a very happy childhood.
My brother instilled that kind of self confidence in me,
that you can wear like an invisible, protective coat
When I was 11, my parents divorced.
When my dad left something inside me went with him. He left a void I've been learning to understand ever since. I had always been curious, full of life and confident in who I was - but his absence changed me. On the outside I might have seemed fine, but inside I felt broken.
But life is always in balance and where there is darkness there is also light.
My dad did not come back, but what came to me is a deep love for writing and music.
I started writing songs when I was 11 years old.
This is the moment I became an artist.
WTF - We the fighters
I spent my teenage years reading, writing and trying to make sense of life.
For many reasons, I lived in a kind of isolation, and I did not feel seen by the people around me.
Partly because that's how teenagers feel.
Partly because the absence of my dad cracked something open that not many in my surrounding had experienced - or if they had, they recovered quickly and went on to daily 'business'.
While they were concerned about their weekends and having fun, I was trying to find my place in this world.
ARE YOU WHO YOU ARE
I did not feel seen by my surrounding, but I felt connected to anyone with a strong and genuine spirit. By those, who had felt life deeply and were curious about life.
I met them through books, music and movies. I loved reading biographies by artists, writers, designers, philosophers, entrepreneurs,...
All those things gave me deep inspiration, and it was all I needed.
I was a dreamer and I created a world on my own - a place where I felt connected, inspired and free.
I had found what I needed to go on.
The wounds were there and they gave me the ability to connect to myself deeply, to understand and to connect with others in a meaningful way.
I know what it means to listen to the right song at the right time, to feel connected to someone through a shared thought and feeling or to read that one line that explains your inner world so clearly that it makes you understand yourself better.
As a teenager, music was my refuge. It was my connection to the world. Today, it's the place where I feel most alive.
Music gives me energy and fills my life with meaning and drive.
When I first went on stage, at 15, it didn't feel like foreign ground. I moved as if I had always been there and I knew:
this is where I belong.
Nothing changed ever since.
I found my place.
If there is success, this is how it feels.
